Memories of a friend

Raindrops falling on my windscreen,
Remind me of time spent with you,
Time we thought we would have plenty of,
And all the great things we could do.

Raindrops remind me of laughing,
So hard that we thought we would burst,
Laughing so loud, we gathered a crowd,
Who joined us with ravenous thirst.

Raindrops remind me of cycles of life,
First water, then vapour, then gas,
They remind me that everything changes with time,
The next phase will not be the last.

Now sunshine is drying the raindrops,
And healing is drying my tears,
Where once there was sadness and loss in my heart,
Warm feelings are chasing my fears.

So when I see raindrops I remember our love,
And feel sad that it was not meant to last,
I remember that sunshine will follow the rain,
The pain that I'm feeling will pass.

So fly up to heaven and brighten those skies,
No raindrops, no worries, no tears.
I'll look up for sunshine and know it is you,
Who'll be with me for all of my years.

Childhood

For those of you who don't know me...well I have always been a little on the psychic side, but never really let on :O Too much at stake in our homogenised world to let those who do not understand know and leave you open to riducule I suppose.

Well last night I decided that I would take a little trip into my subconcious and see what comes up. I did a sort of guided meditation/shamanic journey and ended up on a real cosmic trip without the aid of hallucinogenic drugs :D

I went to see if I could meet my guide who I assumed had been leading me to do all the painting that I have produced recently...everyone around me thinks I have gone nuts...but I am happier than I have been in a long time!

So anyway I did this "trip" and unlike everybody else who thinks that they have guides that are native american or chinese of something along those lines, my guide was a star, who said that she was the soul of the child I never had :( Boy it was powerfull and made me cry even though I also felt incredibly peaceful at the same time.

So now I know who my guide is...her name is Lula, it is Gaelic and means abundance. I had never heard of it as it must have gone out of fashion.

She wants me to tell children stories of how we have messed up the world, and how we can change it if we understand the universal laws that it runs by.

So off to the drawing board and writing page for me....I have a mission!

What fun to escape into childhood for a while :D

Beyond the Secret

Last night I went to a talk on Beyond the Secret....it was very inspirational. Sort of takes you to the next step after the Secret and gives insights on how the law of attraction can be put into action practically.

One of the speakers in the movie, Christian Simpson was actually there to give a talk afterwards. He has a very easy style and listening to him is no hardship.

What I learnt from the evening was that you can't just wait for things to happen, you have to make them happen. Having the intention is the start, but then make the baby steps towards your dream and ask for help! You don't have to do it in a needy way, just ask the universe to show you what you need, and if it is right for your higher purpose things will start to manifest.

Now this week has been quite eventfull for me, I had an art lesson. Now the person who gave me the lesson is an excellent artist, but has got a slightly negative perspective on the economy that we live in, and that art as a career is not a good choice. I don't want to listen to that. I don't.

Ok yes we are in a bad time at the moment, but this is a cycle, it will change and good times will come again. I am enjoying doing my art at the moment, and if it makes my soul soar...why should I not do it just because we are in a recession?

I have plans for my art, and it is not just sticking pics up on a wall and hoping that they sell. It is to use art as a way to express my inner being, potential, soul, and to show that we are not all separate...we are all one, together and that we are connected by energy that we may not see with the eyes, but we can all feel when we get our frequencies rising.

I am not going to let anybody tell me I can't do anything anymore.I am going to put out to the universe my intent to learn and grow through my art as it makes me happy to do it.That in itself is enough to make my soul soar :)

The Law of Attraction

Note to self.............

I have just re-watched The Secret a film about the law of attraction. Now this does not just limit itself to boy meets girl type of attraction. By understanding that the universe is an amazing collection of energy, and that our thought process creates reality, we can attract anything we want in life.

We need to stay in the positive of the here and now, stop worrying about the mistakes we all made in the past, and focus on the future that we want.

So I am going to make a Vision board and pop it on the wall of all the things I want in my life and stop the negative thinking which attracts negative things to happen.

I am going to dig out my Jack Cranfield books as I think he is an excellent writer and imagine myself living the life I want, being happy and full of joy.

So here is my list of things that I want for me (for when I am happy it will brush off on others)

1: I want a house in Wales on a hillside somewhere with a great view where I can retreat too when I need my own space.

2: I want to see my own pictures on the wall of a gallery somewhere and a big crowd of people ready to but them. I am visualising them on other peoples walls as I write this.

3: I want to express how wonderful life can be and write a book of somekind.

4: I want the TV and Newspapers banned in the house as they only propagate fear and negativity.

5: I want to hear the sound of laughter and see smiling faces.

6: I want to travel and see more of our beautiful world. Australia would be good!

7: I want enough money to feed and clothe myself and pay the bills while I spend my time creating art, reading, writing and all the forms of expression that take my fancy.

8: I want my happiness to be catching to inspire others :)

I think that is enough for starters. No negatives, just the things I want in life.


Bring it on :)

Boredom.

Random thoughts. I am using this blog as a way of recording things that come into my head and noting them before I forget them.

It's Saturday morning, actually just checked and now it is afternoon. I am not bored. My light bulb in my head is constantly switched on at the moment. It flickers occasionally as a thought goes through, but comes back on stronger than ever.

I am sat upstairs in my new "office" surrounded by the books and the things I love. Some of my paintings are on the walls to remind me to carry on producing, I have my crystals on the window sill, some nice music on the CD player. I am planning on playing with some Mandala software that I have downloaded.

I go downstairs for a cup of tea, and speak to my "partner". We have not been getting on well of late. Things have totally changed between us. I realised that he is a negative energy whom I have been trying to help raise up for almost 2 years.

I've been throwing money at him to help him over his financial worries in the hope that giving him some financial freedom would make him start to enjoy life. I decided to stop as I felt that I was being taken advantage of.

I ask him what he is going to do with the day. He says nothing. He is depressed and totally bored with life. There is nothing he wants to do or see. He has no energy, and he has no inclination to see what is out there. We are completely at odds as I have an inate urge to discover and explore.

Now he is off to Iceland, to get some food. Which will be the non nutritional type. Mums love to go to Iceland as the food is so cheap and crap and full of god knows what. I won't eat it. We end up arguing!

The reason he is living this bored life...money! The route of all evil. He has none and I do. Although he has a job at the monent, and I recently gave up my well paid job. It was not making me happy. I was trapped in a cycle of despair doing something that I did not enjoy.

Now I am HAPPY. People have noticed that I have a glint in my eye, and a spring in my step. My aura is reaching out and doing what it is supposed to do...sampling and drawing people too me. I have made some lovely new friends who are more like minded. I am painting, writing, seeing and experiencing a whole new life which in the past I have only had glimpses of.

So what if I have not got a full time job at the moment?

Money isn't everything.

Well yesterday I took some of my "doodles" down to the printers and had then run them through their colour photocopier. Wow they looked great, and even the guy in the shop knew what they were supposed to represent.

You see I am drawn to paint things which we can't see with the naked eye. I am not drawn to paint the thing that is right infront of your nose. I know that sometimes we can't see what is right infront of our nose :D

I have also recently had my Human Design chart done. That showed that I am a Reflector, meaning I am totally open to the enviroment and see things in a different way to most of humanity.

One part of my design leads me to find the "inner truth" and the other to "express it simply and precisely". Precission is not something that I am known for, but I am hoping that my pictures demonstrate simply, that we are not all that we see with the naked eye, and neither is the world.

The other "epiphany" that I had recently is that you should listen to your body. It knows what you should be doing with your life. My spiritual journey has lead me to learn Massage, Reiki and EFT for instance. At the moment though every time I try to do a massage my back gives out.

My body is trying to push me in another direction, and when I listen to it, I am amazed. I had no idea so much artistic ability was within me.

So the moral of the story, listen to your body. It knows what is best for you.

Hello

At long last it seems I have been drawn to the world of blogging, but now that I am, my mind has gone blank.

Or has it? Is it really there in the first place? Seems I shall have to go and meditate on what it is I have to say about Life,the Universe and all that is in it. Just as you think you have got a hang of it, it changes. It's moved on, what was reality no longer exists, and new reality is here.

All a bit deep for first thing in the morning :)